You guys won’t believe it. I’ve actually updated things on my blog. I had links about pre-ordering Elegy, and that came out like six months ago. It actually just came out in paperback on Tuesday (it was out only in hardcover and ebook before). So yeah, I needed to update stuff.
So here’s some stuff that’s new:
–FAQs are updated with new questions and expanded answers
–Hollows Graphic Novel is updated. The entire series is out digitally now, and there’s links to get each issue. The ten-part series should be out in paperback form sometime this year, but I don’t know exactly when yet. I think soon-ish, though.
-There’s a tab for the Kanin Chronicles. I don’t have a lot of info under it yet, but there will be more info coming soon. I am super psyched for you guys to check them out.
–Upcoming Projects. It has more on the anthology I contributed a short story to, Grim, which is coming out in a couple weeks. That was a lot of a fun, and lots of amazing authors contributed great stories, so you should definitely check it out when it comes out.
-I even updated the About Me. So that’s fun.
I guess those are the big things. It doens’t sound that exciting, but it took awhile. Longer than it probably should.
I’m feeling very excited about things. Writing is going well, and I am genuinely very excited to start sharing things about the Kanin Chronicles with you.
And to end things, here’s a pic of my dog Isley from when she first met my cat Sophie (Isley is much, much bigger now):
Much Blogging About Nothing
I haven’t blogged in long awhile. In large part because I didn’t feel like I had anything interesting to say.
Well, maybe not in large part, but that’s definitely part of it.
The other part of it is…
Kiersten White (who is a fabulous YA author & all around neat person, if you’re not familiar) once said she keeps the best parts and the worst parts of her life private – the in between things is what she shares with friends and readers in the public forum.
And that made total sense to me. Everybody needs to decide for themselves how much they want to share with other people, be it in real life or online, whether ten people follow your blog or a million. And I’ve been trying to find that balance for myself.
But blogging has gotten in harder for me because I don’t really know how much of myself I want to share, how much of my life I want to talk about. As of late, I’ve mostly tried to keep it my books or general pop culture. Stuff that I think people interests people the most.
But then some things happened this summer. In July, my life became busier with good things (one of which was my new puppy Isley, who I totally intended postings pics and a blog about because she was/is so cute, it’s not even fair). Then August, life took a different turn, one that ended up being much darker, and really I didn’t want to blog about any of it.
But then to blog about other things felt disingenuous. It still does feel that way to me. Being anything other than myself – whether that’s happy or sad or excited or insane – feels fake to me. But sometimes, I think I’d rather not be seen. I’d rather keep myself to myself, and in the interim, I don’t want to post happy blogs reminding you that my books are out and you totally buy them (even though they are out, and you totally should buy them).
It’s been hard for me to be me lately, I guess. That sounds so pretentious and existential, but I don’t know how else to define it.
Being me – much like being literally any person on the entire planet – has always had its ups and downs. But now it feels like I’m not entitled to downs. So many things in my life have worked out so well and I’ve been afforded more opportunities than most people that it feels unfair and unjust for me to complain or ever feel any unhappiness about anything ever again.
This past year has been very a difficult year for me personally. I’ve struggled with my own mortality and reevaluated my life, my career, and everything about myself, trying to figure who I am and who I want to be and what I want to accomplish before I die. It forced me to face some very hard truths and make some very big changes, which even when they’re good are still terrifying. I have had some truly amazing joys this year, but also some incredible heartbreaks that I’m still dealing with. And then I’ve had bouts of anxiety and depression that happen without any just cause, as well as bouts of anxiety and depression that do have some just cause.
I’ve always tried to be candid. I may be many awful horrible things, but at least I’m honest. And I think I have been avoiding the blog because I couldn’t be candid. There are things that I don’t want to talk about it. Things that I can’t talk about it.
I know I could blog about other things -like Isley – or how many times I watched Jaws this summer (27). And I did start writing blogs like that. Many times.
But then I just went, “Why am I writing this? Who gives a shit?” and I stopped.
I also had some struggles writing this summer – I think in large part to where my head and heart have been – and I thought about talking about that, but somehow it seemed unfair. It seemed like a complaint I shouldn’t levy.
Because I feel like because people know how many books I’ve sold and how much money I’ve made that I’m just always supposed to be smiling and laughing, or people will think I’m ungrateful. And I’m not ungrateful. I’m so incredibly overwhelmed by it, it’s suffocating. I can never do enough or give back enough or do anything enough, because I don’t deserve anything that’s happened to me, and other people deserve it more than me.
I think I have survivor’s guilt, because so many people worked harder and wanted it just as much as I did, but I’m the one here with my life, and there’s no reason why I should be here and other people aren’t, but here I am. And I’m sorry that you’re not here too.
I’m sorry that everyone isn’t happy and healthy, and I’m sorry that I can’t make everyone happy and healthy. And that probably sounds like I’m being glib, but I’m genuinely distressed by the fact that people and things are hurting and I can’t fix it. It’s some kind of weird God complex, where I feel like I should be able to fix the world, when that is totally insane, and yet I end up feeling that way all the time. Like it’s my fault that bad things happen. Like everything in the whole world is my fault. That’s an extreme form of narcissism, and I know it. But I can’t change it.
Anyway. I’m just blogging to let you know that I haven’t stopped blogging because I forgot about you or because I thought I was too good for you. I just didn’t want to bore you or annoy you, and I didn’t know how to say the things I wanted to say.
Writing is going better, now, and I would very much like to talk about that when things are more concrete. And also probably when I’m feeling a bit better.
The reality is that I’m at a place know where I’ve realized that I can’t will things to just go away or to feel better, and I can’t just pretend that problems or feelings don’t exist, and it’s now to the point where I don’t think I can’t deal with them on my own, because in reality I haven’t been dealing with a lot.
I haven’t actually being dealing with anything in a very long time. I just cocooned myself inside a world of familiarity and pop culture, and now I’ve left the cocoon because I decided that I’d rather live my life than hide from it, and it’s equal parts awesome, amazing, terrifying, and painful.
So things are good. And they’re going to be good. And I’ll try to blog more. But I’ll still only blog when I feel like I have something to say that might interest you. That’s the best I can do.
News About the New Series!
Yesterday we finally announced the new series I’ve been dying to tell everyone about. There was a nice little blurb on the NYT blog, but it didn’t actually say much about the books themselves. So I’m going to tell you about them now.
The new series is a YA paranormal romance trilogy called The Kanin Chronicles. If you read the Trylle trilogy (or if you’re Scandinavian), you may be thinking that the word “Kanin” sounds familiar. As you may recall, the Kanin are another tribe of trolls, who are mentioned in the Trylle book but not really seen. You may also recall that in Ascend, Finn’s mother and younger sister Ember were going to stay with relatives in the Kanin tribe.
So putting those pieces together, you may feel its safe to assume that the Kanin Chronicles are a spinoff series from the Trylle about Ember Holmes. And in that you’d be both correct, and not correct. Ember is a part of the Kanin Chronicles, but the focus is actually on an entirely new character, Bryn Aven. Other prominent characters from the Trylle series do make appearances in the Kanin series, but I want the primary focus to be on new characters with new story lines.
I’m not exactly sure when the first book of the Kanin Chronicles will be out, but I’d guess somewhere in mid-to-late 2014. And I think the books will be published in a relatively quick succession (similar to how St. Martin’s published both the Trylle and Watersong series).
Other fun facts about the Kanin Chronicles: It’s set four years after the events in Ascend (the final book in the Trylle series). There is plenty of romance. You do not need to have read the Trylle series to understand the Kanin series, although there will be some references and allusions to things that happened in the Trylle books.
That’s about all I can say for now. There will obviously be more of a description and more info about the books in the future.
Hollowland Graphic Novel
As you may recall, I mentioned that my zombie series The Hollows was being adapted into a graphic novel. For the past several months, I have been working with Dynamite Comics and writer Tony Lee and artist Steve Uy, and now it’s finally being released as Amanda Hocking’s The Hollows: A Hollowland Graphic Novel, and I think it turned out pretty fantastic.
Now I am going to answer a few questions that you may have.
What’s the deal with it?
Welcome to the world of the best selling novel Hollowland as never seen before – adapted and enhanced by #1 New York Times bestseller Tony Lee (X-Men Unlimited, Doctor Who), with superb artwork by Steve Uy (Avengers Initiative, JSA Classified).
It’s Day One as a new pandemic sweeps the globe, and all over the world people are turning into mindless zombies. But for five people – siblings Remy and Max King, med student Blue Adams, rockstar Lazlo Durante and teenager Harlow Smith – it’s the start of a journey that they can never return from! Learn for the first time how the characters of Hollowland started their journeys as we go back to the very beginning of the story. Dynamite Entertainment presents Amanda Hocking’s The Hollows: A Hollowland graphic novel.
It’s really cool, because it allows people who’ve never read any of the books to jump in, but it also always fans of the series to see something different.
How can I get it?
It will be a 10-part series, released in digital-only installments, but it will be out in one full print graphic novel toward the end of this year or early 2014.
Here’s the release dates:
Part 1 & 2 are up now, with Part 1 being FREE.
Part 3 – June 12
Part 4 – June 26
Part 5 – July 10
Part 6 – July 24
Part 7 – Aug 7
Part 8 – Aug 21
Part 9 – Sept 4
Part 10 – Sept 18
Why did you do this instead of writing a third book?
This isn’t an either/or scenario. It’s like how you get presents for Christmas and for your birthday. One doesn’t cancel out the other (unless your birthday is on Christmas, in which case, I’m sorry). This was something that I did in conjunction in with Dynamite Comics during a period of time when I was not and would not have been working on a third Hollows book, whether there were comics or not.
I don’t like graphic novels. Is there another way I can read this?
I think these are amazing graphic novels and everyone should give them a chance, but I understand that some people don’t like them. But let’s put this another way. Let’s say you’re a huge fan of Charlaine Harris’s Southern Vampire book series, but you absolutely loathe TV, so while you want to read more books, you don’t want to watch True Blood. That’s okay. You can still enjoy the books without watching True Blood, but there really isn’t another way of getting the content from the TV show without watching it.
It’ the same way with the graphic novels. It’s an adaptation of the novels.
Books for the Red Cross
Most of you have probably seen the devastation from the tornado in Oklahoma. The footage of the tornado, and the total destruction left behind it is so completely mind boggling, I can’t begin to fathom how the people affected by the disaster are coping.
To help out, I am auctioning off books on eBay with 100% of the proceeds going to the Red Cross to help the disaster relief.
I have three different sets of books available at eBay:
If you’re not interested in the books, I would still encourage to donate or help in any way you can. Here are few places that you can help:
You can also text STORM to 80888 to donate $10 to the Salvation Army, REDCROSS to 90999 to donate $10 to the Red Cross, and FOOD to 32333 to donate $10 to the Regional Food Bank.